Milestones.

Sat, 05 Jul 2008 12:41:05 GMT

To whom it may concern:

So in two days, I'll be thirty.

Who knows if I'll actually write an entry on my real birthday - I've been oddly busy and wrapped up in all kinds of processes, activities, and details.

I'm going through all these little contemplative puzzles. It's like the Cliff's notes of my Saturn Return. Where am I going, what am I doing, have I done enough, do I love enough, why have I lost so many people I love, why am I so blessed, etc. I look at the past with fondness, a touch of sadness in places, but no regrets. I live in the present fully and joyfully, paying attention to details that matter. I face the future with hope, a humbling dose of fear, and confidence.

I look at my life, which is in transition; I look at moving away from this area for the first time; I look at following a vocation - not a paycheck - to where it takes me, and trying that way for a while; I look at growing up, at what I've learned, at the person I've become and the person I'm becoming.

I feel pretty good about all this.

So I don't know how much more of this journal I have left in me. Ten days after my birthday will be my sixth anniversary with it, but I don't know if there's good reason to keep it going. I'll always need an outlet, but this well seems to have run dry.

In any case, I need to go start my day. There's much celebrating to be done tonight, and I need to cross all my i's and dot all my t's today.

Hope you're having a beautiful morning, afternoon, evening, week, month, life.

Love,

Me.

Groove is in the Heart

Milestones.